Self Portrait_Evan Vargas

The Plunge, Self Portrait:

Lately, an imbued hermetic quality appeared from abstract associations with the surrounding environment and my contingencies such as friends and family; such  caused the self to be eclipsed from former notions of self. These notions merged into associations that personified objects by allowing the contradiction of self as object to ridicule the surrounding environ which is object, ultimately allowing the objectification of self. A poem done by the late Ezra Pound entitled “The Plunge” embodies the ethic and modal process of capturing the lack of self in regards to society, and the displacement of associations associated with the self by objectifying ones emotions and feelings into something without physiognomic qualities. Thus when Ezra states

“1. I would bathe myself in strangeness:
2. These comforts heaped upon me, smother me!
3. I burn, I scald so for the new,
4. New friends, new faces,
5. Places!
6. Oh to be out of this,
7. This that is all I wanted
8. Save the new.

9. And you,
10 Love, you the much, the more desired!
11. Do I not loathe all walls, streets, stones,
12. All mire, mist, all fog,
13. All ways of traffic?
14. You, I would have flow over me like water,
15. Oh, but far out of this!
16. Grass, and low fields, and hills,
17. And sun,
18. Oh, sun enough!
19. Out, and alone, among some
20. Alien people!”

{The Plunge, be Ezra Pound}

This poem as in my self portraits narrate a metaphysical environ of anomalies becoming normative with in my judgment,
what was strange was something eclipsing normality, that which was perceived being fluid to society, therefore when Pound Placates line 1, “I would bathe myself in strangeness"  he merely states his familiarity of what was established , to bathe takes on a new meaning, for bathing finds its principle in cleansing, in this sentence to bathe now means i will clean myself with strangeness. For me the physical takes on the psychological, where one cleanses usually with water and soap, for Ezra and myself it is the metaphysical makeup of the self within the mind or cogito which allows the action of cleansing to take place. The idea of strange prompts two possibilities; the first is what is strange to another and what is strange to self. But to presume that the self will cleanse itself with itself that which is strangeness creates an absurd contradiction that suggest the metaphysical appropriates the verb of cleanse and refers itself as an action and noun ; however this absurdity seems to be sensible, that which is strange as a cleansing agent, something ridding away of what is not clean, I am strang(ing) my self with strangeness, these comforts (such which is natural in pleasure) smother me which i refer to embody me into who “I” am. There for “I” am strange by society, but myself am normal without it.

Log 1-35mm/125Delta/Portrait

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